Wednesday, August 13, 2008

some real bad nightmares, cant help!!!

I generally have a lot of dreams while sleeping, at times i dream while my eyes are wide open.
I dont know whether they call it day dreaming or not , but i certainly had a dream with my eyes wide open.
I found myself standing in the middle of a X-ing . I was surrounded by all those whom i know very well. My mom, my brother and all those whom i, had ever hurt somehow or the other i n my life.
This included nearly all my close friends, family, relatives. I could find some unknown faces too, a girl , a beggar whom i said NO, last week. All of them were standing there surrounding me as if i m going to address them or standing in front of gallows.
I heard a gun fire and suddenly all of them grab hold of bricks, pebbles, stones whatever was there lying down on the street. They started hitting me with all those, initially one by one and then like wild hunters.
i realized one thing though. The size of weapon they were using was proportional to the amount of heart aches i had given them. They kept on hitting me and i was standing there bleeding like a bastard. At one spot finally i couldnt withstand this stoney shower anymore and finally fell down with a loud thud, every body stopped.
Within a wink of the eye, i found every body running towards me. My mom was howling when she was keeping my head on her lap. I found others too crying like hell.
I finally shook my head hard, i came back to this real world. Everything was fine and calm. I was sitting in the middle of a training session.
Though i chuckled at one thought, that while they were throwing stones, why it didnt pass me and hit others too who were standing there.
Why i had that day dream i dont know....
i guess that i have hurt others a lot and its about time that i mend my ways.
Though something else also comes to my head. Probably my end would be euthansia.......